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[01 Dec 2009|05:34pm] |
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| stop ..hammy time :( |
[19 Nov 2009|01:53pm] |
ive had some pretty bad ,disgusting, vulgar, horrifying ,a nd whatever else kind of dreams before, but this may have been one of the worst. it disturbs me that im capable of having images like this.im not sure what that means
i think it all happened during the last hour of sleep i had before i woke up
but anyway, not in my dream::: last night the girl hamsters started fighting .like fighting fighting. where they have injuries. little bloody spots. it was mostly pear, the fat one, that kept attacking the others so i had to separate her. into this makeshift cage. i mean, yeah. my hamper. she has this mini mug that i used double stick tape on to keep her from knocking it over. thats her makeshift drinking device.
but its finally reached that time where they no longer can all live together and sleep in piles , one hammy on the other. i was upset or i still am ,maybe today will be the day i bring some to petco.
but i guess thats what accounted for my awful dream
in it i was trying so hard to stop them from fighting each other. but they kept finding ways and escaping, .it was a bloody mess of hamster parts .bones stickin g out. legs missing. i remember theo especially. he was like half eaten and still had lungs and a head so he was breathing, but he was obviously slowly dying and what was really strange was how he was screaming. he was screaming like a little baby or something and he wouldnt stop. his cries were freaking me out and i remember covering his face with a cloth so that i could suffocate him and put him out of his misery. then there was a very small hamster that was deflated like. i picked it up and felt a sharp bone in its stomach and that was all that was in her. adam and i were scrambling around, crying hysterically at these wounded half dead hamsters ,trying to pick out those that could maybe survive if we took them away from the others an d brought them to petco ?one hamster bit adam and it was such a serious occurrence or something it was like watching someone you love being like outrageously tortured in front of you. he was screaming and bleeding so much
and then it just got worse
i was in the backseat of a van with adam and ducky and sultana and a cop was driving us. he was following after joey who had just stolen something or did something like break into a building, i dont know ,something joey would do and we were all in trouble too .we had to watch this chase between the cop and joey and i was getting scared that he would definitely get caught. we saw him hop a fence and enter a house and then the cop entered it and pulled him and threw him on the ground and handcuffed him. no one in the van really took it seriously . and even when the cop started beating joeys face in ,just violently hitting him and pushing him into the ground, no one seemed to care all that much and i was crying a lot and sultana turned to me and asked why i was crying, or told me to stop. she was in disbelief that i could be so upset and this doesnt remind me of her i dont know how it could
, but i dont know someone else definitely. and thats all i can recall.
i woke up and started getting ready for work but i felt sick and i didnt know why yet and then i was crying and shaking .and then i remembered everything
ice cream
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| season of the witch |
[06 Nov 2009|08:38pm] |
woke up this morning and discovered aleksandr was missing
i guess adam forgot to close the top of his cage
so all day weve been searching for him
every room ,every little corner ,,behind the fridge , we took my dresser out of the closet and moved everything around. we even had mira run around in her ball to find him
but still no luck
its like he disappeared
adam was saying how he felt like someone came into the room last night while we were sleeping and just took him
and i got mad at him
fucking paranormal activity
i scare too easily
but in other news i like mochis
they are too perfect
layering two tshirts is ugly
it depends ig uess
on the shirts
i dont know i was just thinking about layers
mochis and layers
i finished professor layton and the diabolical box.
that game was fun
it felt like a miyazaki movie but you know
it was obviously interactive
with puzzles and everything
but yeah the whole story was cool and the ending was intense
i miss my hamster
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| hAMMmmM! !! |
[05 Nov 2009|03:27am] |
i have to get up in about four hours
its been a shitty night but i dont want it to end
lately ive been waking up and feeling terrible. like i dont think it can get much worse than how i feel when my alarm goes off and i have a half hour to get ready to go to work. i was looking for a job and then i found a job.
but its not just feeling terrible because i have to work
i dont really know what it is
seeing as how im staying up past three on a weeknight ,it could probably be determined that extreme exhaustion may just be the cause
yeah ill just leave it at that
i make so many to do lists and then i just forget about them. i think i have about three or four just laying around. boxes unchecked.
i want to stay in a cabin in the snow maybe during winter break or something. i want to make another pumpkin pie from scratch. i want to clean my room so i have room to do yoga. i want to finally learn how to do a trick without any help..,.
ive been skateboarding a lot almost every day .and i love it
last week my dad was gone he went to the dominican republic with his girlfriend. it was a pretty fun and relaxing week. hung out with jake, oz, theodore. played lots of video games.
i never finished my list of movies from 2009 that i wanted to see. and now its already november. so i made some headway on 2010. and by headway i mean two movies so far. its like another to do list oh no
( and i will love you ponyo )
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| tha t i never forgot |
[28 Oct 2009|01:11am] |
i took my lucky break and i broke it in two.
put on my worried shoes, m-y-y-y worried shoes.
took me so many miles, and they never wore out.
my worried shoes. my worried shoes.
oh oh oh ohhhh, my worried shoes.
i made a mistake that i never forgot.
tied knots in the laces of m-y-y-y worried shoes.
every step that i take is another mistake
i march further and further away in my worried shoes.
oh oh oh ohhhh,
oh oh oh ohhhh, my worried shoes.
i never wanted to cover anythign before except when i say i want to cover some random song and i dont mean it at all it just goes on my imaginary list in my head of songs that would sound funny if i covered them ,but i think i would like to with that song ,maybe . i like th e oh oh oh ohh hh ohh
ive been skating a lot mostly really late sometimes by myself to safeway or the gas station ,just around. adam went with me this one time and on the way i back i was looking for the crack in the sidewalk where i hella bit it the night before and while i was trying to find it adam hit it and fell off his board well like not bit it like i did where i flew forward and scraped my hands and shoulder and whatever else on the concrete but like stumbled off his board. i will update and say i got a new board its purple blue with a tie dyed panda . but anyway falling hard like that is strange when youre the only one around i got up and looked around to see if anyone saw me and no one was there an d then i like shook it off literallllyyy
i was watching something on the food network /?maybe i heard it when i was falling asleep about some lady and her name was janet the planet and she said in this quick explanation that she changed her name to that to remember to not take life so seriously and i thought thats pretty stupid and then i started thinking how she has to write her name like that on checks she makes out. and when introducing herself,. and basically tons of other trivial situations and it is such a ridiculous name that i think if i were her i would be reminded of that every time i had to write it or say it aloud and yeah i guess i would be reminded how what a joke this is
i dont like it when people let you apologize for things that you shouldnt have to apologize for but thats probably my own fault for apologizing in the first place. im sorry. its okay. ohh .
its my own problem
there is much video game playing at my house with many different systems going on .i wish i could stay up and hang out too but i have work blah blah ahhbalhblah. my boss did it to me again where he sends me a message saying to be in at a later time, right when im walking out the door . and then he shows up twenty minutes late. and stupidly i was fifteen minutes early on top of that .,not tall adam do the math how long did i have to wait in my car
my car. i got it back the other day that was thursday. thursday was a bad day. work .came home and my mom was already here and i basically had to do all these errands with her till after 5 and then something else and finally i got to be home and rest and fight and sleep and sleep and fight and fight and sleep and sleep
i want to be daisy for halloween or if that doesnt happen ,oh yeah i think ive given up the toad idea, or kiki from kikis delivery service .
ive been watching a lot of movies lately. i destroyed my room so ive been using my dads and last night me and adam watched reservation road and it was supposed to be bad and it was not very good i just wanted to see it for mira sorvino and mark ruffalo and jennifer connelly but i mean it wasnt awful awful and then... this movie called special which was kinda cool strange .and about a boy .and something else whatever else.
i took two gallons of milk from the gas station they were sitting outside andthe guy said they were expired and adam said he gave me the weirdest look when i took them when he said not to take them and i skated away with them and we ended up throwing them against a tree and a wall
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| Re: Math requirement |
[21 Oct 2009|12:06pm] |
sure
i wish i had some trader joes strawberry lemonade but i am at work right now. the only good thing about this job is that my boss travels a lot so i get to work alone and wear leggings and masons shirt and take my shoes off and text and cigarette breaks
last night i went over to masons house with adam and joey. i had not seen mason in forever. sort of watched cube. i got a lot of new clothes from mason ,my favorite place to shop is from his pile of giveaway clothes. now i can postpone laundry even more
me and adam got back to my house around midnight and we were both pretty tired and i thought theo would be there to let me in because i left my keys inside, but he was not home and my windows were closed and for awhile adam and i just slept in his car in the front seats. i was waiting to see if theo would give me the address of the place he was at so i could drive there and get his keys but he never responded . i ended up somehow fitting through his window that was barely open at all .like half the size of a keyboard width, i dont know a keyboard is obviously in front of me. im not good at comparisons.
its like that movie aeon flux.. .i wish i could remember that conversation
i wish i could remember what movie i saw on halloween a couple years ago
the boy hamsters are starting to fight with each other in the middle of the night. i must have woken up about four or five times to their little hammy shrieks and i turned on the light and broke it up
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| i think a baby jumping spider just bit my foot |
[20 Oct 2009|05:10pm] |
the brothers bloom was a lot better than i thought it would be .i was thinking that even though the director of brick did it, , it was still some action y movie with a not so great trailer and id ont like action movies very much, but me and adam watched it and it was pretty cool and funny and where the wild things are wasnt as great as i thought it would be
or like it wasnt worth yearlong anticipation and excitement over but it was still okay the first thirty minutes or so made me really sad . i cried a little . my new bf max.or jeez adrien brody
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me and adam bought a nintendo ds and we lay around play games like this game where you write any object out and it appears for the little person to use or eat or whatever. adam had to use a stool and a net to catch a butterfly and i just put in flower and the butterfly came to me
adam is laughing he put in girlfriend and it looked kind of like me but before that he typed in tranquilizer and so when the girlfriend appeared she went straight for it and fell asleep
. i wanted to be productive today but then after work i was driving home and my head was hurting and it was painful and i came home and got into my bed and then proceeded to throw up all over my bed . adam drove me to my chiropractor appointment she cracked my neck and did chiropractor things to me and my neck feels better my headaches gone
i felt like it was almost like a scene out of garden state because when we later got to matt coulters house he showed us a sinkhole the street fell apart into the creek and i keep calling it a soupslide and fogetting its called a sinkhole i dont know why i keep thinking soupslide but then james and joey and adams brother appeared and we looked at it for awhile and stood near the edge of it i kinda lost my train of thought
the games called scribblenauts
yeah maybe ill be productive tomorrow
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| dont give me that look you know what a banana seat is |
[19 Oct 2009|08:07am] |
well, it takes you from wanting out, wanting it back, being over it ,and moving on
maybe i want to listen to pete yorn
pear has an ear infection
her head is always tilted to the right now
i jsut had some fruity pebbles
im going to work
im not as fussy as i thought i would be
i slept on the couch and my dad kissed me goodbye this morning
im going to try not to be so mad anymore
he did give me an apology after all
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| more like hamsterjournal |
[10 Oct 2009|09:11pm] |
i love having so many hamsters
we separated the boys from the girls a long time ago for obvious reasons but like three weeks or something ago we were supposed to separate all of them again so that each one had its own cage but then id have like 11 cages in my room
i dont want to be a weird hamster lady ., .girl
but we have all the boys in one cage and all the girls in another and they are still getting along it even seems like its worse for them when they are apart. duckys hammy died and the one that i gave to my grandma has turned mean
i put the three girls in one ball and they all ran in it together .i cant get over how cute they are
theo, isabelle, peach, pear, nick, kevin, and joe. its hard to tell the boys apart so we just named them whatever . and it used to be peach plum and pear . ducky took plum and then she was teeny and now she is gone :(
and now in my not hamster update ,, my dad and theo are gone for a week and i almost have the house to myself except my dads girlfriend is apparently sleeping here sometimes because its quieter here ? and she works a night shift at the hospital ??im kind of disappointed.
i played at playground made friends with little mexican girls jessica and yesenia and im invited to their birthday party at the park tomorrow iron my dress wrap me up a present bow in my hair i go to bed early tonight .i like frantically searching for escaped hammies in my room there are so many it is excessive and thus ridiculous and thus great
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| it was around 50 degrees at my job today |
[30 Sep 2009|02:19pm] |
im not whats missing from your life now
i could never be the puzzle pieces
they say that god makes problems just to see what you can stand
before you do as the devil pleases
and give up the thing you love
but no one deserves it
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| alone again naturally |
[17 Sep 2009|03:37pm] |
my cars been totaled by a semi truck
blah
i watch little miss sunshine so i can see paul dano dance in the end
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| and heaven knows im miserable now |
[27 Aug 2009|12:55pm] |
i was wondering if it was enough to just put that
i cum home to baby hamsters screaming .last night they were especially screaming for long periods of time they have discovered hamster food ! according to the calendar ive made ,yesterday and today is when they shall start wandering the cage blind but it says nothing of incessant screaming ,. i dont want to give them away now i know i could never give an actual baby away not that i could see that ever being a future circumstance
and somewhere, maybe someday,
maybe somewhere far away,
ill find a second little person
who will look at me and say,
"i know you
youre the one ive waited for.
lets have some fun."
i think im going to start going to a physical therapist ?
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| egg |
[17 Aug 2009|11:49pm] |
mira gave birth tonight
about six babies ?i think shes still having more
i hope she does not eat them
im going to boil an egg for her okay
nine babies
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| whatevers |
[17 Jul 2009|05:13pm] |
i dont like movie theater audiences i dont like it when people announce whatevers on the screen , like thats a bird , thats name of character , hes dead hes alive hes walking hes breathing . i saw harry potter six last night i guess it was to be expected
ive taken roughly 400 excedrin in the past however many months i have a headache pretty much every day
i feel defeated
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| uhwake |
[14 Jul 2009|12:09am] |
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when is jeff goldblum going to swoop me up
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| peep peep peep peep |
[09 Jul 2009|11:11am] |
'you were totally asleep and not responding to anything i was saying until i said barnaby and you grabbed him and snuggled with him and mumbled his name ' :me this morning with my stuffed bear
i thought i had much more to say i guess not
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